Quicksand
It's become my nature to be a voice of reason and encouragement to others in their endeavors, but when I'm the one needing these things I have no one to turn to.
I have been and continue to be okay with that, as I have other means of setting myself straight when I need it.
I won't go into details but today I've undergone an introspection and discovered a few things about what I'm up against in my current situation.
And I don't mean outside forces acting upon me and mine, but forces within myself -- namely my creative energies and what condition they're in.
The prognosis isn't good. "Discouragement and malaise" come to mind, "energy level is low", "don't have enough push to follow through", and "efforts are likely to be half-hearted". And to cap it all off "Even if you want to do something, you may just feel too tired."
The cure?
"Try not to get discouraged, for that will not help you." Ah swell. "Instead, cut your lossses and disengage yourself if posssible from [assertive activities]. Get into a position where you can afford to be unconcerned about results."
*groan*
The problem of course with that is that there isn't anything I do where I'm not concerned with the results. Unless I do nothing, then it doesn't matter...
But, all this makes sense, here I've been flailing around trying hard to work when really I've just been sinking deeper into a quicksand of no results and frustration, which of course leads to more flailing (and more sinking).
And so now, now... I need to think more about all this...
*stops flailing*
~Liriel
I have been and continue to be okay with that, as I have other means of setting myself straight when I need it.
I won't go into details but today I've undergone an introspection and discovered a few things about what I'm up against in my current situation.
And I don't mean outside forces acting upon me and mine, but forces within myself -- namely my creative energies and what condition they're in.
The prognosis isn't good. "Discouragement and malaise" come to mind, "energy level is low", "don't have enough push to follow through", and "efforts are likely to be half-hearted". And to cap it all off "Even if you want to do something, you may just feel too tired."
The cure?
"Try not to get discouraged, for that will not help you." Ah swell. "Instead, cut your lossses and disengage yourself if posssible from [assertive activities]. Get into a position where you can afford to be unconcerned about results."
*groan*
The problem of course with that is that there isn't anything I do where I'm not concerned with the results. Unless I do nothing, then it doesn't matter...
But, all this makes sense, here I've been flailing around trying hard to work when really I've just been sinking deeper into a quicksand of no results and frustration, which of course leads to more flailing (and more sinking).
And so now, now... I need to think more about all this...
*stops flailing*
~Liriel
posted by Ethan at 10:03 PM
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